It is again another painful experience of mine. I had been worried so much, that you did not even gave me a call or an SMS to inform me about your travel so some place.
Well, if this is according to God's plan, then I would like to say that God had let me experienced and knowing the amount of care and love given and how much you meant to me. I was not able to do my things well and having in mind, all thought that might possible occurred . Images that showing things that you might be doing on that particular time floats around my head all the time. It is one of the most unpleasant and painful experience to have someone that you cared so much, to gone missing in a sudden!
I do not know how should I describe, alright let's put it this way: I almost told the whole world, contacting everyone that I know, and connecting to everything, squeezed out every thought just to figure out where are you. Hoping to get the tiniest strand of hope to find you, at least knowing that you are safe...
When I touched my heart in front of the Lord, the Lord knows my heart. All that contained in my heart, He knows.
Oh Lord, how much I had changed. Please don't let me be far apart from you. Lord you blessed us to have us be in part of your plan, please lead your stray sheep back into the flock.
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I do not fear evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, They comfort me -Psalms 23:4"!
Lead me back to the Church Life, for I desire Your presence in me. I do not know how, but You do. Something in the church i m not delighted, but Lord please place your blessings to all the churches. Enlighten us, open our eyes that we may see the truth. Lord, we give all things to You!
Oh Lord, I envy the brothers and sisters that are able to attend training to enjoy You, Why can't I? I desired to be your soldier to be equipped and preaching your Gospel, but I do not have the truth within me. Why I can't be like them? Why I always have to be having insufficient knowledge? O LORD JESUS! Brighten up my way, I desired You to hold my hands and lead me through. I gave up in everything. I trust in You and Your plans. Amen.
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