It's been a year since my last visit. Many things changed. Relationships got better and many things came by. We are very close now and are brothers in Christ. God had brought us this far, give thanks to him.
Some interesting things that had happened lately was during the last semester, Y1S1 of my degree life - exam tragedy. Trust me, waking up late during the exam day is a very bad experience. Other nearer news are the semester finals result. Quite okay except 1 fail.. =.=! Nevermind, still appealing~ Glory to God.
The purpose of my blog here is about today, just happened about an hour ago. Sigh, history re-acted. My feelings overwhelmed my mind and bad things happened. Oh Lord, I am keep affected by violin... I wanted to put it down and only live for You. But I just can't. My feelings are complicated, and keep on changing 180 degrees. I wanted to let him play violin for the performance, but I felt bad as well. Not completely jealousy but somehow hoping that I have a chance to play as well. Even though like that, I should had not expressed my feeling to badly, I have a low EQ~ Give thanks to God that he is okay now, sleeping, still staying here. Thank you Lord for blessing me with such a caring person.
O Lord, I wanted to change my characteristic. I wanted to be like you, soft and faith. I was suffering from defeated and I never wanted to suffer from the defeat of the battle of the mind anymore. I need you as my refugee and my weapon and strength to overcome this barrier and defeat Satan. No more under his slavery. O Lord please defeat me, bring me with your possession, make me your slave and to only live for you. Amen~ May God bless our relationship and our spirit.
